Rest in Peace

Because we're
A
multifaceted being.
Spiritual alive in the physical.
In a flesh house i dwell.
A
Two sided body.
Left and right
arms and legs.
Under one head.
Inside a throne.
Inside beats a heart
just on the daily.
Since it started.
Then stops.
Dust to dust.
Rest in peace.
It is said for us.

Cut the meat small

If you want to get more veggies somewhere you know people don't normally tolerate veggies, you have to cut them small.

circles of vision

My vision stops
I cannot see what's behind of me
I think this common lack of 360 degree vision is (part of) why Yahshua sent them out two by two.
Back to back, side to side
With two or more, a more whole view.

This came to me while listening to traffic go by behind me. I had wanted to sit in the sunlight.. it can feel quite warm in Colorado when the sun is shining on a winter's day. The clouds come here a lot, but they do not always drop something (rain or snow). 
I was sitting there thinking how the sound of traffic doesn't really bother me, as long as I can't see it. No visual image to enter more sensory information.. Sight unseen the noise just reminded me of a different kind of sea. 

I was on a hill, not far from the road, maybe little more than twenty feet, facing away from it where I sat on the ground; I could hear the sounds of, but could not see the vehicles going by even in my peripheral vision. I'm thinking about how I'm not really in danger and therefore feel safe, and I live in a country where right now many of us walk around in concrete jungles feeling relatively "safe".. I thought about how not being able to see all around us, makes one vulnerable. Hence the train of thought going to the buddy system (and then the buddy system times ten, and so on, a nation of buddies), and Yahshua's command. He sent them out two by two, He gathered them in numbers, He bid them sit down.  

An older account in the written record came to mind.. How Ruth and Naomie remained together while both lacked a husband.. how two sisters are safer together, in the world, as they make their way back to family. Yah's family includes many couples who work together. And when men are unmarried, two brothers are safer going out together to carry out the King's business. 

This buddy principle is seen throughout. Adam should not be alone.  And When men work together to build, they can build amazing structures, of course the massive relics from bygone days still seen in the present, leftover pyramids and such, were built by slaves, forced to work together. Imagine what could be built by Yah's people if they worked together. Could they restore the old paths to walk in? 

Shalom.

a little imagination goes a long way

imagination
a dangerous tool
very easy to become captured time
in your mind
spent on some form of self-admiration
or assisting in weaving 
things experienced with the senses into a false reality
that world within worlds
a fantasy.

the rabbit trail

before it started
there was a trigger
i cannot remember
though the thought after i can
"media creates language"

a curiosity about the word media
eclipsed by an obsession
for the phrase come to mind
that sparked the whole thing off
it was some metaphor, idiom or cliche
that i realized started with someone
that i found fit in with media being plural for medium
o the parallels, and crossing synchronicity
prepackaged phrases that come at ease
having deeper meaning
because they express something we can relate to

and then there it was
a rabbit trail
come full circle

prayer (shalom AbbaYah)

AbbaYah
see right now
i'm not sure
if it's safe in my head
You say be still
when the chaos is overwhelming
instead
yet here You are
my Peace, shalom AbbaYah
Yah help me
show people how much i love them.
if You answer this prayer
by default i'll see
how much i love myself.
shut down the chatter of the mind
help me zero in
on the Love, the Light, the Truth
Shalom AbbaYah, Love Endless.
everlasting praise
for every minute

we don't clock out

we're on all the time,

there is no clocking out.

there are no set hours,

it might be day, it might be night,

watchman, look out.

when you're awake, you work.

there may not be a paycheck

to account for the time;

but it is counted..

like the hairs on a head.

no number is an accident.

life is mathematical precision

all around us.

some find in the anomalies

enough improbabilities

to give them proof.

and isn't that ironic.

halleluyah.

hear me

you will never meet Yah 

face to face

until you meet Him 

in the secret place

the sacred space

of your inner being

where two become one 

the kingdom starts inside

the energy of your existence

powered ultimately by Him

and given 

as LIFE unto you

you may do your own choosing

you may call it "free-will"

because

it sounds better 

than responsibility

you may choose 

to enter 

into the garden enclosed

the choice always 

is always yours.

and

if you don't know 

what I'm speaking of, 

no fear

we all 

have much to learn

shalom 

gray areas

nothing is totally black and white
look closer at zebra
she'll sing the same song
in the color of her
you'll be seeing

things, people, reality
all are complex
breathing spirit
morphing at will

unaware so often
of their freedom
their Gift
the ultimate offering from
A LORD unto a lamb.

this thing is living
LIFE
it's a ride and we're on it
with way more control than
they'd like us to know

we can change the channel
we can change the world
we don't have to buy their bullshit
anymore

don't and do's

dizzy only seems today

like shes lost her dollar at the dollar store

because she exists in another place

in a different Way

this physical existence

originally designed for pleasure

before corruption entered in

with an adversary, a serpent and sin

satan’s leading of the veering began

confusion, babylon

we’re here now

but the carnal plane is decaying rapidly

as we die we go forward

where we can’t see

some hanging on to hopelessness, arrogance, or worse;

but some go forth on promises,

an urgency

that just makes sense

what are we doing with our time

are we wasting it on the flesh?

carnal, cancers, winter is coming

and fear’s constant plea

please Yah help us do this right

help us unite

head, body, limb, hand

before we’re out of time

You’re plan

it is done

Halleluyah!

You give us peace

in the midst of even this

shalom.

even if it hurts shine the Light

It's me
who so often hinders
the flow of relationships in my life.
I know this.
I want to change this.
I usually feel helpless.
But I'm not.
Helpless ever.
I choose this.
Whatever it is
How I see it
Creates the perception
How I see it
And without wisdom,
Only darkness.
When I cannot
I bid you shine the Light.

worthy

God I'm a hypocrite.
I want people to trust me.
But I don't trust You.
Not fully anyway.
The proofs in the pudding
When I make my own way.

Regardless of me,
Worthy is the Lamb that was slain.

Shalom.

It breaks my heart more than it makes me angry

if it's still here in the morning
it'll be a miracle
when this runs down,
once this tape's played out
we will surely know where we each stand
Sure you think we do
But till then who are you to curse?
Who are you to curse?

Come home.
Please come home
Family. We are. It's true.
To our heart where we're connected
Body soul mind all

Got my cookies tossed
a couple a times
Met a bunch a blurry folk
who danced a lot a different stuff
Some to avoid the elephants in their life
Others played a tune like they fed on strife
The conflict made them glad
But when they recognized it
It made them sad
Endless cycles. Void of happiness.
Why would anyone
choose this?

The ultimate guess what
Someone had been using them all along
But not the one they suspected
his name they didn't know yet
We never knew quite what to expect
So somehow we started expecting
everything to turn into shit
Then
I realized I never let go myself
I agonized, stressed and medicated.
Acted. Like a child lashing out..
Letting experience show..
just how far the boundaries may go.........

Will you be there when I fail ?

It's not fair. I know. The pressure.
To perform to my expectations
But the delusion fits
It makes more and more sense
We're beaten down
Lost all our ground
A child cries out
Falling from the nest
Not knowing
How to fly.
Yah is there all the time
His cradle like nothing my tongue could describe

And all I can do
Is hope
You get it too.

life changing codes to live by.

1. Pray about everything.
2. Stay calm.
3. Don't argue with people.
4. Think the best about people instead of assuming the worst.
5. Forgive every offense.
6. Pay attention to the people who cross your path. Listen to people, make eye contact. Try to communicate and be objective and non-judgmental. Those People, those souls are the only thing you see right now that might still be there in the next life. They are more important than any thing, insecurities or busy-ness that binds you.
7. Remember to SHARE the gifts bestowed upon you.
8. Take time to meditate.. reflect on your recent choices. Shine the Light.
9.  Walk in gratitude.. Rejoice in all things.

devotionals with Yah. +2

we opened this morning, called in babylon august 10, 2016, 6:15am, to:

"i confess to you that after the Way that they call a lie, so i worship the MightyOne of my fathers, believing all things which are written in the torah-law and in the prophets.  and they had a hope in our MightyOne, which in their testimony reveals, that there shall be a resurrection of the dead, both of the just and the unjust."  (acts 24:14-15)

what struck me first upon reading these two verses was the part about the resurrection. the resurrection is a pretty big deal; it's one of the defining characteristics of the bible, the claim which sets it apart from all other sanctimonious and so-called-religions. the idea that the dead will ALL be raised from their present slumber, and be sorted like a flock of four-legged grazers into a saved and lost lot. 

in this season i have been walking next to someone going through the valley of the shadow of death, in the darkness of a cloud filled with thoughts of suicide.

this place is so dark, there is nothing real here to grab onto.. except Yah.

The problem with suicide is the carrot it dangles, the idea that it's way is some kind of escape from this life's torment.  the verse in acts is sobering because it reveals clearly, in no uncertain terms, that the speaker stands on the claim of resurrection as an idea not his own, but a rock of truth taught in the ancient records.  This is a huge mountain of defense.  There is no escape in suicide.  You will wake back up in time, and once again face what you didn't want to today.  Only then you will face it in the Presence of the Light made visible, which will lay you bare and un-hidden.

what hits me like a wrecking ball is the realization that it's not going to be what people did wrong that brings so much condemnation and shame when they face the Judge, and their live's books are brought forth and opened up in heaven's courts.  It's not going to be the way they fornicated, the drugs they did, the acts of selfishness, the insecure roots of their guilty baggage.. it's going to be what they missed out on while they stumbled around blind and hurting themselves and others, refusing to come unto their Creator for a healing balm and restoration.  It'll be the future they could have had in the Kingdom, the Kingdom where they had a safe place to escape, the Kingdom they finally see they are going to be missing out on; the torment will come of that reality.  That the treasure they threw away for the dung of this world is gone forever.  And how simple a change in heart, a simple turning back to the Source, would have rendered the sad story of their soul a different ending.

This final revelation of Truth will be agonizing, but they will recognize it and bow the knee to the One who loved them all along and wanted them and died for them, but they refused His ticket home, His Way to life; they refused to get on the Ark of salvation and now the door has closed.  Forever.

Shalom.

devotionals with Yah. +1

morning, on a day known in babylon as tuesday, august 9, 2016.
 
We fell into Matthew 21:28-32 just by flipping the Book open.

"But what do you think about this? A man with two sons told the older boy, ‘Son, go out and work in the vineyard today.’The son answered,‘No, I wont go, but later he changed his mind and went anyway. Then the father told the other son,‘You go,’and he said,‘Yes, sir, I will.’ But he didn't go. "Which of the two obeyed his father?”

They replied, “The first.^"

Then Jesus explained his meaning: “I tell you the truth, corrupt tax collectors and prostitutes will get into the Kingdom of God before you do. For John the Baptist came and showed you the right way to live, but you didn’t believe him, while tax collectors and prostitutes did. And even when you saw this happening, you refused to believe him and repent of your sins."  Matthew 21:28-32

The minister went to two men and said come to Jesus and serve Him by serving others.  The first man said, "Nah, i'm good" and went back to his mindless daily grind, the vomit of the world, his partying and wasted time.  Unfulfilled, One day the man was inspired to reach out and start helping people who crossed his path, and slowly day by day finally poured his life out walking in the way of peace and love, in service to others.

Where the second man told the minister, "Yes sir, i accept Jesus into my heart. i'm a sinner dressed up in my church's clothes who said the sinners prayer so now i'm saved."  Then He went about with cherry picked verses, throwing stones of judgement at the homosexual, the drug addict,  and the atheist with lofty words, growing cold in his pew at sunday "service" where he has a lengthy, documented church-membership.  But he turned his back on the poor, he stayed in his sphere of comfort and reached out to no struggling soul who crossed his path day in and day out.

Which of the two did the will of Abba, the Great Spirit Father?

The one who sat in church thinking they were saved but did literally nothing for others. Or the good samaritan, the one who rejected the church clothes but lived a life of service following the leading of the Ruach daily in his interactions with the world, talking to people about the Yah who woke him from his slumber and released him from bondage.  The Messiah said to the Pharisees (the mainstream church members), the whores and the addicts are going into the kingdom before you.

shalom. 

apologies chapter 1.

Fifth grade with kirkbride.
Kris L.
He asked her who pissed in her Cheerios.
She got him sent to the principle's office.
She was such a hypersensitive donkey.
She's sorry now about it Kris.
Shalom.

climb out

like the chosen ones
born into exile
drinking this bottle of water i bought
because i can't draw my own
i haven't got a well,
or a stream, or a white picket fence

but i started at what i thought
was the bottom

until i learned the hard way
that there's a button there
and if you push it
the bottom always drops down
always it goes deeper still
no rocks to land on
just a gaping black hole

i stood
looking up from the depths
of a wayward descending spiral
reflecting on all the buttons i pushed
in awe to discover
next to each and every one
was a ladder i missed

and from every rung
just over my head
was a Hand reaching down
trying to help me climb out

the warrior theme

why do we love movies/stories with warriors?
because there is an epic battle taking place.
here. today. right now, this very moment.
and it's not far off in the distance,
it's in your heart and mind,
in the deepest seat of your soul,
where only one can reign..
light or darkness.

image credit: unknown

today (a prayer)

i want to be Yah's cheerleader
i want to always be there
ready
willing to do, say, pray..
anything
He asks me to